Kat's Mews

And So

Fri, 03 May 2013 14:54:10 -0700

My life disappeared from existence as I knew it, ten years ago. When a flying object weighing in at three thousand pounds known by the name of an ATV bounced off my back as I lie there due to it’s having bucked me off like a wild horse, I survived. Life changed, everything changed, including me. But most off, my body completely metamorphosed. I was aghast, and torn, but most of all, in pain. As my world came tumbling down around my eyes, the shift in pain from my muscles, my bones, my tendons, and everything in between, the fatigue for just trying, attempting mind you, to take a shower, was overwhelming. Meanwhile I had morons trying to tell me that something was wrong with me, that I had become a failure. Oh excuse me, beat me while I am lying down. No, the pain is too great, I think I’ll stay laying here because it feels good. No, I couldn’t get up because I couldn’t bloody well get up! And so has been life, attempting to move this now decrepit body, attempting to survive the hair raising pains, and trying most of all, to do something, to continue. Because this stuff just didn’t go away.

By Kat Lyons

1bohemian: Willy Ronis - Vincent et le chat, Paris, 1955

Sat, 13 Apr 2013 20:21:05 -0700

1bohemian: Willy Ronis - Vincent et le chat, Paris, 1955

bookshelfporn: bookshelves and stacks of books in this amazing...

Sat, 13 Apr 2013 20:18:58 -0700

bookshelfporn: bookshelves and stacks of books in this amazing Paris studio apartment featured in The Village.

Nothing But The Facts Ma'am

Sat, 13 Apr 2013 17:45:27 -0700

I’ve heard from a few eyes and a few words, that I can be awfully confusing to a few people. But it helps when you know a bit about my history. So here goes:

1) At seven years old, I fell three stories. I broke a bone in my head. It debilitated my sense of time, and left me with pain in my neck and head for years to come. I began hearing my pains described by old people, as their pains from age, when I was a child.

2) I had carbon monoxide poisoning, at age twenty one. I also had a condition of walking pneumonia, which was through one lung and a third through the second lung. I also had muscle tissue break down, from starvation. In the hospital, they only initially knew about the carbon monoxide poisoning. So they thought I was doing drugs instead. Therefore, they took away the air to my brain for too long, and gave me brain damage, so that they could test me. These tests showed the pneumonia and the starving to death part. That explained it.

3) At age twenty four and twenty five, I was being brain damaged by five chemicals which had seeped into the ground from some broken pipes. They were in my air and water. This gave me terrible brain damage. It changed my life and how I interract with those around me. Everything changed. I lost a lot of things, and had to rebuild it.

4) In 2003, I had an ATV accident. It threw me off of it to the right and the guy to the left. I landed on my face. He landed on his back. The ATV, all three thousand pounds of it, bounced off of my back, and down the hill.

I am still alive, but not in one piece. I have been putting myself back together, ever since.

By Kat Lyons

This makes me remember all those days where I just left the...

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 15:24:47 -0700

This makes me remember all those days where I just left the house, and visited goodness knows who. I lived by the seat of my pants. Because I was studying in college. I felt that the rest of my time could be used completely free. Now I see how much more that I could have done with my time. But I also was doing something completely calculated. I was learning. I knew that I didn’t know, unlike most young somethings. And it unnerved me, extremely, to the degree that I made it my mission to find out. Kind of like sticking your hand over the fire without knowing what fire was, that is exactly what I did. And I must say, even though I regret those days by the fire and blown by the wind, I am changed because of it. I am mature. I have learned. I know things, that I wouldn’t have known, if I hadn’t have been willing to try. And for that much, I am grateful. I just wish it didn’t take so long. And I wish I had known about the fire, figuratively speaking, before I put my hand in it. But oh it was fun, and exciting. Yes it was exciting.

By Kat Lyons

Thank you. ~Kat

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 15:17:00 -0700

Thank you. ~Kat

As I transform myself and my life, there are days filled with...

Thu, 11 Apr 2013 15:15:34 -0700

As I transform myself and my life, there are days filled with peace, and joys that jump out at me all around. There are also days where my mind and heart remember something which makes me cry, and I’m tied up in knots about it. But no matter what, through happy and sad, I am changing, growing, and building, one step after another. Many of the steps that have gone their way, have brought me to today. And for that I am entirely grateful, for I am blessed.

By Kat Lyons

That is just gorgeous. ~Kat

Wed, 10 Apr 2013 22:29:51 -0700

That is just gorgeous. ~Kat

Silence Doesn't Solve Anything

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 21:19:47 -0700

You want me to tell you that I didn’t live. Oh but I did. You want me to tell you that I didn’t love you. Oh but I did. And I still do. It was those who loved you who did not love me, who kept you from me. But that, you do not want to hear, because that is what you can not bare. It is not me that is wrong. It was them. But now there is anger, because you have become like them. Their distorted reality makes them cruel and makes them snide. I was simply full of love and they did not love me back. It is not my fault. It’s on them. It’s not your fault either. You were caught in the middle. And they have fed you full of lies. Your words, they turned sour. Because you wanted me to confirm their lies. This I would not do. For I tell the truth. You sounded drunk. This might be a reason why you don’t remember what you said or how you raised your voice. But you can’t take it back. I still remember. And I still want to answer, what I refused to answer then.

By Kat Lyons

"You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly..."

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 21:05:51 -0700

“You own everything that happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them, they should’ve behaved better.”

- Anne Lamott (via ithurtssomuch)

Photo

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 18:45:32 -0700

Photo

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 18:43:37 -0700

Touch Lamp

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 18:41:19 -0700

I want to tell you the deepest darkest secrets that I hold snug and tight. But I know that not everyone can see what I see. For when a person looks at another person, we can not know what exactly brought them to that place in time. We can not know their story, even if we think we do. Sometimes, when we know each other, we assume that we know all there is to know. When in fact, there may be books inside, stories untold, truths yet to find, or forever to hide, from you.

By Kat Lyons

If I told you my secrets, would you turn and run? Or would you...

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 17:11:00 -0700

If I told you my secrets, would you turn and run? Or would you love me back in return? The times when I was silent, have been far and wide. Silence is not always golden. For I have missed out on too many opportunities to tell someone to fuck off when they really needed it, or to tell someone thank you when they whole heartedly deserved it, or last but not least, to say I love you. Silence is not golden. And the unsaid words, they never go away. ~Kat

The joy at seeing what we can do when we put our minds to it....

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 17:06:00 -0700

The joy at seeing what we can do when we put our minds to it. And the joy of being blessed by God. ~Kat

I’ve been having so many dreams with water in them. ~Kat

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 17:04:00 -0700

I’ve been having so many dreams with water in them. ~Kat

I have never stopped wanting to answer your questions that I...

Sun, 07 Apr 2013 16:50:00 -0700

I have never stopped wanting to answer your questions that I never answered. ~Kat

I love this stuff. It’s great to find a picture to point...

Fri, 22 Mar 2013 10:09:00 -0700

I love this stuff. It’s great to find a picture to point to to say, “this!”

Love this

Thu, 21 Mar 2013 11:10:35 -0700

Love this

abattoir-blues: Shakespeare and Co. Paris, France.

Thu, 21 Mar 2013 10:57:47 -0700

abattoir-blues: Shakespeare and Co. Paris, France.